You know, whoever it is that coined the phrase, "a dose of your own medicine", is a dork.
He's right, but that doesnt stop him being a dork.


Don't you just hate it, when your mistakes come right back at you and bite you in the ass? I know I do. Terribly.


But then again, they also say, "You don't do the crime if you can't do the time."
Now that makes a lotta sense too.






Don't ask me why I posted this now.
I dunno if it's me or the beer talking, but I do know it's 100 percent true.

Shakespeare said that talking to oneself was an art of the highest form.
Not that it matters much, but I do agree.

I talk to myself on a myriad of topics, and a variety of issues, all the time, everyday. I am my best friend, I am my best quizzing competitor, I am my best GD opponent, I am my interviewer, I am my own confederate.
The other day, I was fighting it out in a job interview with myself, and I, the interviewer, asked myself, the interviewee what was the experience I had. I replied to myself, "If you consider me for this position on the basis of experience, then I'm sure I'm the best candidate you have. Because I have 22 years of experience, of living it out in the world, of living it out with people, 22 years experience of living life... And my job would be a big part of my life now, wouldn't it? Hence, I daresay that these 22 years of my experience would definitely come in handy, and put me ahead in the race..."

It's sorta like playing Chess with yourself. It's not something I enjoying doing, however, I understand the concept.You try to better your next move. It's good, and I like it.  

hi.
first of all i'll just say that i know this post probably might ruffle a few feathers... but i don't say this in support of drug abuse.
just some food for thought.

why is weed/hash considered such a taboo in india? why is it not available in open shops like it was in the 1970's?
booze is.
booze was.
it still is.

i know, ur gonna say "booze is different." but that's my point exactly, booze is different. its a hell lot worse.
before u scoff and turn ur heads at this, do some research.
and if ur too lazy to get off ur big asses, then read on. coz i know what i'm talking about. i've done my homework.

there have been very few cases till date that someone has actually died because of weed/hash overuse. as a matter of fact, there have independent studies by numerous medical authorities (check out this link) which have proven that the number of deaths caused by FDA approved drugs (read medicines) is a helluva lot higher. the number of marijuana deaths is approx 0.25% of the number of deaths caused by medical drugs which are prescribed prescribed in place of marijuana.

people might say that marijuana/cannabis doesnt kill, destroys ur body. and that's why u shouldnt legalize it.

now dude, correct me if i'm wrong, but doesnt alcohol do that too?
it completely destroys ur digestive system , conks ur liver off, and god knows what else...

weed screws ur nervous system up, and contrary to what people believe, that it makes them more creative, what it actually does is dries up ur brain cells (but yes, it also helps u explore the unexplored side of ur mind). i admit, weed isn't the best thing on earth, but neither is alcohol.

so why the double standard?

simply because drug trafficking is the most profitable business on the planet.
drug trafficking has spawned up an entire host of other lucrative industries which wouldn't have come up otherwise.

now, lets start at the basics (for the uninitiated).
how much do we get weed for? (FYI, i use weed as an example. hash is also applicable, except that it is more expensive. also the setting i use is calcutta). normally u cud buy packs for 10 bucks, 20 bucks, 50 bucks etc. i prefer scoring (i'm not an ardent everyday smoker) from a dude called mangal singh, near salt lake. he charges 50 bucks a pack, but that is worth it.
because it is good shit.

anyway, back to the issue. if the government were to legalize selling of marijuana through government stores, like govt liquor shops, how much would my 50 buck pack cost? 10 bucks? yes, about that much... because there would be no middlemen involved then. but then what happens to the hundreds of thousands of people who make their entire livelihoods sneaking this stuff into the city? they'd be out of a job. what about the host of industries that the contraband marijuana market has spawned?

this isnt the handiwork of just one organisation. tobacco companies dont want the marijuana "industry" to be legalized, but they stand staunch behind the alcohol industry. Why?

the reason is pretty simple... its all about business baby.
profits.

smokers who smoke marijuana will probably be able to relate to this well enough.
8 people out of 10 who smoke up, will tell u that when they smoke up, they dont smoke to many cigarettes. it is true. it doesnt happen with me, but it happens to all the people i smoke up with, novices or experts, wuteva. maybe, i'm the exception.
anyway, if sales of marijuana were legalized, then all the people who smoke up will smoke even lesser number of cigarettes. that is a considerable loss for an industry which is constantly under the fire from the authorities. makes sense?

but the tobacco industry stands behind the alcohol industry because most smokers love to smoke when they drink, and they smoke more when they drink. myself included.
more profits.

yes, i admit, any sort of intoxicant is bad in excess. and i wud strongly advise people against it anyday. but temme something, alcohol is openly and widely available in india, and has been for quite sometime... but has that turned us into a nation of drunkards?
weed was available in govt licensed shops back in the 1970's. does that mean we were a nation of dopers who did nothing else but smoke pot all day?

no.

i dont support drugs such as heroin, cocaine etc because they do cause deaths by overdose very frequently. but that is not the case with marijuana.

and please dont gimme crap like people smoke up, get high and drive like a maniac.
because people drink and drive like a maniac too. every bloody day.
but that doesnt end with alcohol being banned, does it?

i could, and actually would write a lot more about this.
but i accidentally pressed the power button on the keyboard (i'm not accustomed to this new keyboard at work) and i lost the write-up once already. hence, i'll leave this here...
i'll edit it later when i feel like it.



p.s - i know many people might not agree to my views. and honestly, i appreciate a good discussion even if u dont agree with me. if u dont agree to what i say, and wanna temme something, please dont flame. leave me a comment or wuteva, send me a mail, anything... just that i hate flaming.

p.p.s - people. please remember. smoking weed, hash, any form of marijuana or cannabis is harmful to health. all sorts of drugs are.

p.p.p.s - if possible, dont do them in the first place. i smoke up sometimes, but in strict moderation. always take care of urself. if u do moke up, please regulate urself, or try and quit.

p.p.p.p.s - and no, i'm not trying to be a social prophet here.

                             Middle of the river.

                        Wind rushing through my hair.
                     Smoke rushing through my veins.
                          The high hits the head.
         The stars mock me seeming playfully outta my reach.
                            Water licking my feet.
     The waterfront of Calcutta lay silhouetted in front of me.                                      Shimmering.
        And the dark expanse of the night is all that stands.
                          Between me and the Eden.
 

                    Never has the hash smelled so good.
                       Never has the wind been cooler.
             Never have stars moved about so much in the sky.
               Never has this city looked so goddamn beautiful.

                The only thing missing was a certain someone. 

A certain someone who could make you feel at peace with yourself. A certain someone who could make you be content with yourself. A certain someone who could set ur pulse racing by the brush of her skin. A certain someone who could arouse you with the scent of her hair. A certain someone who could seduce you with the essence of her body. A certain someone who could complete the picture. A certain someone you could make love to, amidst the currents and the wind. A certain someone whose head you could have on your shoulders, such that it feels just right, like it was made for it. A certain someone who could snuggle into your arms. A certain someone who you could have a million conversations with, without ever having to speak a word. A certain someone whose breath on your back would be so hot... so close, that you could taste the salt of her skin. A certain someone with whom you could just lie there, content with your world, with yourself... just billowing the smoke out the nostrils. A certain someone you could drive with to Balwant's at 3 in the morning, and have a cup of his special brew. That certain someone you could drive down to Sharma's with and have dinner, at 4 in the morning... someone special with whom you could watch the sunrise from across Babughat.

Yes, the person you've been thinking of all this while is probably your "certain someone".

                            
                            And as for mine, you ask?
                                 I already have her.
                                  I've done all this.
                                  A hundred times.
                                   A million times.
                              But its still not enough.
                                    Never will be.

I managed to watch about an hour of "Life... In A Metro" today. I rarely watch hindi movies, but some people had said it was a decent movie. So, when I went over to Shayan's place late in the evening, and he was watching it on cable, I decided to catch a bit of it too...
And it struck me later why the characters are so relatable in the movie; they're are your real-life characters who you'd meet every other day... You probably know someone just like them in you life too, and some of it is a part of your life, some way or another. Perhaps not the exact situation, but yeah, there are parallels...

There's a character played by Sharman Joshi (the wacko dude from RDB) who charges for his place to be used by couples... for fornication, obviously. And Kay Kay Menon, his boss who's having an affair with Kangna Ranaut, who Sharman Joshi happens to be in love with... when Kay Kay gets breaks up with her, she attempts suicide, and then things happen finally between Sharman Joshi and the girl... at least, I think they do, coz I didnt watch after that...

But it made me realise how similar it was to my life... well, maybe not the same events, but still...

Basically, me and Trina had been going out for quite awhile... and we used to make out at Shayan's place all the time (not that he charged for it! Although, if he had, he'd prolly be a millionaire by now!) but anyways... me and Trina broke up sometime ago (yes, my fault), and no, she didnt attempt suicide... but yeah, she must have been a little hurt... and turns out Shayan's been in love with her for a long time too... And then yeah, they got together for awhile too, but that didnt work out later (unlike the movie)...

So, yeah... I dunno why, but I just felt like writing this tonight.
But anyways... i'm sorry, like I said, I don't really know why I started writing this. i really dont, just thought it was weird, or coinicdental or something...

i dunno why this is relevant.
Or why i'm writing this.
Just wanted to.
Interesting though.
Maybe not to you.
It is, to me.
And thats all i care about.


P.S - Kangna Ranaut looks really hot in the movie. She can't act to save her life, but yeah, she's hot!
P.P.S - Why does she always play such loser roles in movies?

No, this is not exactly what you're thinking.
No.
I hate Britney Spears.

I do.

The "you" i'm referring to here is my girlfriend, Pradeepthi.
I'm a slave for Pradeepthi.

Just kidding.
No way.
I don't believe I even said that aloud. Ouch.
I was actually referring to technology.

I hate giving someone, or something, control of my life. Yet, unknowingly, I somehow have.
To technology.
It isn't really a good thing.

 

I sometimes envy my friend Shayan. He lives alone, doesnt carry a cellphone, no computer, nothing. He'll get in touch with u when and if he wants to. No obligations.
I really envy him in this regard.
But the fact of the matter is that I just cannot do it.
I can't stop using my cellphone.
I cant get off the internet.
I've tried.
But I simply can't

There was a period in my life a few months ago, when i didnt have a cellphone. Basically, I'd lost my last one, and I didnt have enuff cash to buy myself a new one. My parents would have paid for it, but I dont like taking money from them. So, i was without a phone for about  months.
And believe me, it was hell.
Although i did get used to it, it still was horrible. I felt disconnected. Not in the loop.
Just out of it.
Then when i got my new phone, it was alright again.

I mean, its really weird. The first thing i do when i wake up is check my phone for any calls i might have missed. That is, unless Pradeepthi (aka Minnie) wakes me up with a call, in which case the first thing i do is whisper an extremely drowsy, and unintelligible "I love you". The second thing i do is turn on the computer before i even use the bathroom. I finish and come back and log in to check my email. And as pathetic as I know it sounds, I actually get disappointed if i dont have any email. Why? Does it boost my ego to know that people send me emails all the time?
I dunno, i really dont.

I love getting wet in the rain.
But i cant remember the last time i did that.
Because I'm a slave to my cellphone. I cant go anywhere without it. And getting drenched in the rain would mean screwing up my prized phone. It would mean fucking up the mp3 player.
And I cant allow that.

If i have to stay at office for another 2 minutes for something, maybe a bit of data transfer, and i've already logged out, I still make it a point to log into my email in order to check whether i've got any new email in the last two minutes.
I'm not happy about this.
But i cant help it either.

Seriously, what the hell is this world coming to?
I was listening to the radio, and I heard something about the "Icon of the year" and guess who the nominees are...

Orkut
Multimedia Cellphones

I was too shocked on hearing the first two to register the last three.

But right now, i just heard the ad again, and turns out the other three are abhishek bachchan, rang de basanti, and you.
and kailash kher just went on air saying Orkut should be the youth icon of the year.
Yaay. Amazing.
Simply mindblowing.

I mean, orkut?????

????

????????

WTF????

Orkut is good. It sucks, but heck, it is useful. Yeah, its managed to get me in touch with many friends of mine from Bahrain who i thought were dead. But it really gets beyond the levels of tolerance when someone i see every bloody day, and have been seeing for the past 5 years in college, tells me that "Listen D, check ur scrapbook, i've left u a message there"
I mean, what the bloody hell just happened in the name of technology???

I "met" this kid a few days ago. 
An immature, 10th grade kid.
I use met in quotes coz i've never seen him, and i dont think i wanna.
he found me on someone's friend list, and sent me a request.
I normally dont accept unknown friend requests.
I have over 350 people in my list, but over 340 of them are people i know personally. The remaining few are people i've never met, the only reason i've added them is coz i thought they were interesting.
And i hadn't been proven wrong yet.
Till this one kid.

He seemed interesting at first... which is why i accepted his request. But this guy is talking to me on gtalk, and he wants me to scrap him.
I was like...  ???
????
Turns out his sole motto in life is to increase the size of his orkut scrapbook.
And he has successfully devoted all his time to this new apparently "profitable" venture.

But why exactly?
I really wanna know.

I mean, i know guys have this thing about the size of their penis. If ur ever in a life-threatening situation involving two guys, just get one of them to say that he's got the biggest member around, and u have successfully managed to create a getaway.

But what's this about scraps?

"I have more scraps than u.
No, i have more scraps than u.
No, i do.
No, i do!
NO, I do!!"

Push.
Shove.
Hold collar.
Sucker punch.
Kick.
Get up.
Box.
Punch.
Kick.
Kick.
Punch.
Box.
Bite.
Stab.
Bleed.
Die.

This is where we're headed. Don't worry, we're making good progress.
We're halfway there already.

That day is not far when u open the Times of India to read on the front page two side-by-side stories, one stating one guy was killed coz he cheated on his best friend with his girl, and the other stating that one guy killed another because he had more scraps and a higher number of friends, on his orkut profile.

Sad. Yes.
But its almost true.

I really don't get it.
Do u get like special priviledges if u have more than 10000 scraps?
People actually go like "No, no wait, just 2 more scraps, and i'll have 3000. Then i'll go to sleep and u can go too."

I would understand if i would get VIP entry into Roxy, Venom, or Undeground upon having 20000 scraps. Above 30000 means i get a free drink at Roxy every time i go there. If ur one of the underprivileged, with only 10000 scraps, u just get a free ride on a Whiteliners A/C bus. And the day u cross 100000, u get automatic membership into The Tolly Club.

That i would understand.

But this... why?

I fail to realise.

Maybe I'm too thick to grasp one of the important lessons of life.

I need to grow up.

hi people, am back again.
yes. me.
good, old, obnoxious me.

its raining cats and dogs here. i couldnt go to work.
u'd think i'd be upset about that, but no i'm not. any excuse to be at home in the middle of the week.


been smiling like a dumbfuck since 6 in the morning. that's when it started raining.
no, i'm not the surd who kept laughing everytime there was a flash of lightning coz he thought he was being photographed.
u wish.

just that apparently pradeepthi means lightning.
and i miss her like crazy now. gotten used to it by now though.
feels just like i havent had an arm for a helluva long time.
miss it like crazy. but i know it aint there too.

now it makes sense. right?
well, it better.
else screw yourself.

peace out.

i dunno whether to laugh or cry at this.
My today's Orkut fortune:
"You will never need to worry about a steady income."

contrary to the title of this page, i'm neither drunk, nor am i high, stoned... inebriated in any way... i'm just extremely pissed off right now...
my mp3 player's conked off. so i'm having to make do with crappy music on the radio.

and then i searched for "India" on urbandictionary.com

http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=india&page=1

Well, u bloody, friggin, sons of bitches, India ain't any of this...

India still is a remnant of the oldest bloody civilisation in this world. We've been there way since long before the "last supper" happened dude...
I'm not one to wallow in the past, be it good or bad...
But still... I believe it deserves a mention. India was the richest country in the world. It was the most sophisticated nation there was. Yes, we eat with our hands. But that's only coz we know how to use them. That's the reason we dont have to rely on knives, forks, spoons to get ourselves thru a meal. Not that I have anything against cutlery. I'm perfectly at ease with both. Just sayin... We knew how to add, divide, multiply way before others learnt to count.
yeah, we take away all the tech support from the americans coz we're smarter, more intelligent, we know more abt computers (and almost any other subject that u can think of). I mean, for god's sake! i know americans who cant spell 'massachusetts' correctly, but most indians can. (for proof, watch the Annual Spelling Bee contest) i mean, i know its a difficult spelling, but come on! its a state in ur own country for pete's sake!

yeah, i know people think we dont have tv, and we've never heard of cable probably.. but dude... that was a long time ago.. like i said, i dont wallow in the past.
India, today, is not only the most developing country in the world. it is the new land of oppurtunity. the brits plundered us for a helluva long time... yes, i admit, we were stupid enuff then to be trampled down like that... we're not perfect either... but believe me, the amount of money india had is more than the amount of gold in fort knox. and thats not an exaggeration... studies have shown that going by the inflation rate et al, if we went back in time... the amount of money a middle class indian earned in those days was thrice what an upper class englishman earned.

In refernce to this particular line "For all the outsourcing and jobs that end up in India, the vast majority are labor occupations that a handicapped chimpanzee could do, this outsourcing is falsely portrayed by Indians and their supporters as evidence of India's growing literate and capable populace. "
Believe me dude, that aint true either... america's got too many high school dropouts who'd happily do the same thing at minimum wage.
yeah, we do outsource jobs. but not labor jobs. the people who are illiterate (yes, there are lots of them here), or not,  wuteva. they work as laborers in places like the middle east. and if anyone asks me how i know all this, that's coz i've seen many places, i've lived in the middle east for 15 years. i know.

yes, yet again i agree we're not perfect.
but that doesnt mean calling us a democracy would be irrelevant and farcial. yes, issues like the caste system, gender inequality and the likes still exist in our system. widely amongst uneducated classes. and shamefully also among a section of the ecucated society.
but i'd like to see a white-assed gang of guys, go out and act up a little bang in the middle of harlem. go ahead, do it. white skinned boys still do call blacks "niggers" in the us. in the uk, people of a darker shade are referred to as "chocolate boys", sikhs are still referred to in shameful terms, a middle of middle eastern feautres was shot dead with 7 bullets in his back in a london tube station, a majority of american husbands are still wifebeaters, an asian high school biology teacher was referred to as a "brown-skined bitch" in australiaby her students, despite being awarded the best teacher award in her school.
so, basically what we do stops us from being a democracy, but america, the uk and the likes are good? way to go.

i'm not defending any of our faults. i condemn them and despise the as much as every person should. but these factors exist in every economy. and people are trying to eradicate them, that doesnt mean we're not a democracy.

yes, india has thrice as much military might (not 10 times, no) as pakistan, its "opponent", india has faught (and won) all three wars with pakistan till date. but if u ask why india hasnt been able to punish the pakistanis militarily, it is plainly because we have chosen not to. if we wanted to we could intrude like the us did into afganisthan, and iraq. and come out pretty darn good too. but why should we punish ALL the pakistanis for something which not all them do, or did?
i'm sorry, if u think that that is the way to teach them a lesson, i'm sorry, i disagree. and in that case, i dont even see the point of trying to get the point across to someone like that. its not like we cant snatch back kashmir from pak. its just that we want kashmir back, not just the land. we want it back with the people in it. and as for the issue of geurillas coming in and "devastating" the indian military, that's not true either. its not like they dont do any damage at all. its just that what they do is a minor chink in the armor of the indian military. the reason it is such a big issue is because it is a major humanitarian issue.
coz innocent people die.
if i thought abt it the way those peabrains thought, then i wud say a minor group of people called the taliban, came in and devastated america. wut say? the local people of a tiny country called iraq (i call it tiny, because it is probably the size of texas, a state in the us, if u didnt know) have completely flattened the american military, havent they?

as to the point of india's historical relevance being first fashioned by the arabs, that is bullcrap. because, they were only the first people to realise that there was a free world called india. back then, every one thought they were the only civilisation to exist. the english thought that, the arabs thought that, the chinese thought that, we thought that too. when all the places were discovered, people flocked to india, yes europeans included. that shows exactly who is more relevant.

yes, we are a flawed society today too. just like every other society in the world.
abt persecuting and burning muslims,  it is indeed deplorable that it does happen at all. but it is not as widespread as u would think. it shouldnt happen at all, yes. absolutely. but then what about the ostracization of muslims in the so called "first world" countries like the us, the uk etc? just because a person is muslim, he/she is subject to higher scrutiny at airports like jfk, newark, o' hare, heathrow, london etc. and this is, what exactly??
and as for india pleasing its "republican" donors like the us by persecuting muslims, first of all... that is not true at all. because records will show you that india receives not too much aid from america, and the uk. heck, america didnt supply weapons to india, when india was paying! even when it spent the most in the developing world on defence! now just coz india needs to buy 128 multi-role fighter aircraft, in a deal that wud be a friggin 6.8 billion to any country, the americans decided to lift the sanctions.
but even if the issue of pleasing the "reppublican donors" were true, yes, we'd be scum. definitely. what wud that make the us? ummm... i'm not too sure abt this... so help me out here... what is it that we call someone who bribes others to persecute and burn muslims for its own interests?

india is on its way. definitely.
we're not perfect. defintely not.
but no country or society is born that way.
hell, after so many years, no country is still perfect.
we're still working on it, just like every other country on this planet.
maybe we are a little behind some others, but yes, like i said.
we're working towards it.
and we'll be there. real soon.
whether u like it or not.
 

currently listening to: nothing (mp3 player's conked, shall get it fixed)

i'm indian.
i'm from india.
i'm bengali.
i hail from west bengal.
and i wondered. why are we such dorks?

we've been sitting on a veritable, enviable mine of culture, tradition et al, but then why do other people think of india as a place where people still ride around in elephants, and a land of snake charmers?
well, for one, we are that. and we still do it.
but not only that.


bengali's have a local alcoholic drink called 'chullu' and another called 'tari'
chullu is this local drink which is very cheap. and tari is made from the syrup of the date palm, and its delicious, not to mention intoxicating.
then why the hell don't we market this elsewhere? why does it have to be a local drink? why do we have to frown upon someone who drinks chullu? oh yes, it is frowned upon.
since it is available for 10 bucks, it's been labelled as a rickshawala's (or hand-cart puller's) drink.

but if we look at it that way, what the fuck is tequila? its a local mexican drink too. but they've marketed it such that today it costs me 450 bucks to have a friggin shot at SPE, or Roxy, or Venom, or wherever... and yeah, chullu's still available for 10 bucks.

wtf is vodka? its a local russian drink, which costs as much as shit up there. but i have to reach deep into my wallet for a good bottle of russian vodka, or even smirnoff for that matter... and not just in india, everywhere else in the world...
why the hell dont we market chullu, or tari, or hariya (which happens to be a bihari drink) or any of the million local drinks we have out here? i use these as examples coz i know abt these very well...


people in france spent a shitload of cash to buy biris. yes, those tiny, vile-smelling, small cancer sticks that we can buy here for a rupee, for a pack of 8, or 10. but why only france? if the french like it, i'm sure there are sooo many other people out there who'd love it... why cant it be that an englishman goes to a good store, and asks for a box of the propreitor's finest biris, instead of those cubans? why can't there be a connoisseur of biris, for pete's sake?
not like i have anything against those cuban delights? my only question is, if they can, why cant we?


not many people know abt the 'italian chandelier.' . u dont either? well, not surprising... wudnt expect many people too...
its sex position.
i see the word sex has somehow managed to hold ur attention for a little longer.
yeah, it is true. sex sells.

getting back to my point... yes.. the italian chandelier... no, i wont disappoint u. its a sex position. and if u are looking for a vivid description, so u can get even hornier and then jerk off reading this, i'm not sure u'll be too happy.
and yes, please wash ur hands before u use the keyboard again.
anyways, the italian chandelier is a sex position which should have been named the crab walk or something. it involves getting into positions which are not easily imaginable, forget doable... i can do it, but thats coz i have an incrediblly flexible body (i can even lick my elbow! try it, most of u wont be able to do it). it comes from the kamasutra, which was written in india, by an indian, and it was widely practised by indians too... a helluva long time ago, a few thousand years ago... but the name suggests otherwise... why? why is it called the italian chandelier, and not the indian crabwalk?

same with mother superior too. except that mother superior is a much easier position. works really well in cars. and although a few thousand years ago since there were very few automobiles, we indians used to have sex in this position, in horse carriages... and others get the credit.
yaay.
this sounds so much like work.



wanted to talk about dope too... but shall save that up for another day... perhaps tomorrow...


p.s - if u think i write abt meaningless crap, i dont care.
p.p.s - if u think i dont make any sense, i dont care.
p.p.p.s - if u think i should write abt other stuff, i dont give a fuck. i write about what i want to, what i like, what i think, about something that makes sense to me.
p.p.p.p.s - i appreciate ur comments. and if u think i use 'I' way too much, and if u think i'm self-obsessed, ur absolutely right.
i'm a narcissist.
big time.
live with it, or leave with it.

hey people....

call this a new beginning or something... the last blog's been goin on for about 4-5 years now, and i haven't posted regularly for the past year... thought many times of reviving it, changed the layout, the design, everything... but nope. didnt help.

hence this one... hope i can continue here. starting on a fresh note. the layout and all was done in a hurry, so don't worry... will change some of the designs and stuff...

anyways... till the next time, let the clock tick...